dead in the water
"you're inconsiderate and rude. you talk about being loving and compassionate and all that but i think you ought to just concentrate on plain decency and politeness. you have these things in your backgound and who knows how they effect you but i just know that i don't want to be treated that way. i don't want to hear that you're sorry. i don't think you're sorry. you are a very smart person and you know what you're doing. i don't want to give you the benifit of the doubt. you don't deserve it. i'm going to hang up now."
punched in the gut on polk street. head on the steering wheel. try to breath. breath is not taking the sickness away.
"hello, i just want to say that i am sorry. i feel like i just got punched in the gut. i don't want to be a rude person. i do care what you think. how can i ever get better if you don't tell me when i'm screwing up? i do mean stuff. i'm not perfect. i don't always know how my actions affect other people. i don't expect you to forgive me. just know that i am truly sorry i hurt you. that's all i wanted to say. sorry."
"you know, i've never felt like any relationship i've had is a waste of time. i always grow from them but i feel like we've gone nowhere. i feel like i've just gone backwards in this relationship. i'm going to hang up now."
had a turkey tv dinner and wrote an email to jack saturn. there's a doberman head trying to eat a paper airplane on my laptop. joe jackson art. my back hurts from bending over my loupe and looking at slides. drank my last beck's. i don't think i ever want to have a relationship with a woman ever again.
i took the 49 and then the 45 and then i walked to a closed camera repair store. i walked to an open camera store and purchased a cabin 4x loupe and a cabin light panel. i took the 14 to color 2000 and asked the guy with spikes in his lower lip about getting scans but he wasn't giving me the best customer service so the manager looking over his shoulder had to step in. i walked to king's diner and had a baconburger with cheese and a coke, i took the 14 to my house and answered the phone. it was kevin.